postheadericon Hold Me Jesus


My car seems to be the place that I do the most thinking lately. It's also the place I seem to shed the most tears, but maybe those two things go hand-in-hand. A couple of nights ago I was driving up to the cities and I was thinking. I've felt a bit like I'm flailing lately, to be honest, and I was thinking about what the heck I need to do to get back on track.

In that moment, God told me. An old song started to stream through my speakers.

Well sometimes my life
Just don't make sense at all
When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small...

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hard inside my soul
I swear there must be blisters on my heart...

Surrender don't come natural to me
I'd rather fight You for something
I don't really want
Than to take what You give that I need
And I've beat my head against so many walls
Now I'm falling down
I'm falling on my knees

And this Salvation Army band
Is playing this hymn
And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin...

So hold me, Jesus
'Cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my Glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace

A classic from the late, great Rich Mullins. I first heard Rich Mullins because of my dad and so his voice and his songs always make me think of my dad.

The first verse was like the perfect words for how I've been feeling. Nothing has made sense lately and as I struggle to try to make sense of it, I get more lost. Some obstacles just seem so huge, and it seems like my faith is never enough...like I always want it to be more.

But then you get to the chorus, and it becomes so crystal clear.It was like God was telling me that it's okay to let Him hold me. It's okay when I cry so hard that I tremble. So I started to sing along. Hold me, Jesus. And as I listened and as I sang,I was flooded with these powerful images of my dad and the example of love that he has shown me. Jesus can't literally hold me, but the people in my life can be His arms. Be His love. And that's a pretty incredible thing.

It's a good feeling to know that you're loved. And I'm eternally grateful for people in my life who don't ever let me forget that. There is probably not place I feel more protected than when my mom or dad hugs me, and there might not be any sweeter sound that a friend telling me that they love me. Tonight, I'm thankful for those things. And thankful for the way that God reminds us of what's important...that we are loved...through the simplest of things.

You have been King of my Glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace
 

postheadericon Celebrate You!


"Today you are you!
That is truer than true!
There is no one alive
who is you-er than you!"
- Dr. Seuss

Today would have been Theodor Geisel's 111th birthday. Can you even believe that?! To celebrate Read Across America Day, I posed that quote on my Instragram and Facebook. Each time the picture got a "like," I was able to re-read it and think more about what a true and awesome statement that really is.

It's just such an awesome reminder that you, yes YOU were created to be special and unique. You were made to be you, and nobody else. No one else in all creation can be who you are. So embrace that. Love yourself! Try to see yourself the way other people see you. Because YOU are AWESOME!

I love the humor that Dr. Seuss puts into his work. It's spectacular. But honestly, he is one of the most genuine authors I've ever read. Oh, The Places You'll Go!is one of my all-time favorites and really, who doesn't love the advice given in that gem?!

"You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself
in any direction you choose.
You're on your own,
and you know what you know.
And you are the guy
who'll decide where to go."

You are a BEAUTIFUL Child of God and YOU should celebrate that fact today. Dr. Seuss would love it if you did!

"You're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting,
So... get on your way!"
 

postheadericon Live Like It's Lent


"God cannot give us a happiness and peace apart from Himself,
because it is not there.There is no such thing."
- C.S. Lewis

I stumbled across this on Facebook this morning and it really has me thinking. I'm not going to lie, I've been struggling lately to be "happy." I know that I'm looking for happiness in mostly the wrong places, but man is that a hard habit to break. I know that true joy and contentment come from only one place, or rather from the One.

So why is it so hard to break the wiring that draws me to looking for happiness in people and things and everything apart from Him. This week has been a rough one. While I am so thankful for the time that I got to spend and catch up with some people that I absolutely love, I still feel kind of empty. So right there, my friends can't make me happy. I have to dig deeper.

So digging deeper it is! It's Lent! I love this time of year. It's a great excuse to turn toward God and find our purpose in Him. I've been reading a devotion for Lent that has a theme of "Living like it's Lent." It's kind of fun so far. In the first week, I've been reading a lot about how our lives are "leant" to us so we better use them to serve the Lord. I like the concept.

So I've been reflecting. What gifts has God given me? Even gifts that seem insignificant to me, are probably far more important that I realize. So how can I use those gifts to serve others? It's time to get creative. But the great thing is that God is right next to me through all of this. Through my brainstorming, but also through my struggle.
"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you;
he will never leave you nor forsake you.
Don't be afraid; do not be discouraged."
- Deuteronomy 31:8
It's almost spring! It's almost Easter! Enjoy the journey through Lent. Hopefully it brings some enlightenment to all of us.